Have you ever been truly in love??? I have been… once.
It all started about nine years and six months ago…
I worked as the GM Assistant Manager at a Marsh Supermarkets near Fox Road in the Geist area of Indianapolis, Indiana. Her mom and her shopped there once a week. I would always say “Hi” to them, and help them find things from time-to-time. Her mother was a very wonderful person. She always had a smile on her face, and I could tell she was a very loving woman. Her daughter… was beautiful. She had an amazing smile and a figure that would drive any man crazy at that age. Age… that was the one thing that always concerned me. I knew this daughter was younger than me, but it was really hard to tell how ‘much’ younger she really was.
A few weeks go by and I start to find friends of mine that also were friends with her. I found out she was in HS, and that she was beginning to start her senior year. I was beginning to start my freshman year of college, so I felt relieved that she was not too much younger than I. I also found out her name: Kristi. Kristi… this name seemed to fit her very well. She had amazing blue eyes, had a shy but interesting personality, and enjoyed going to after school activities (basketball and football games). The more I began to know about her, the more I started to have an interest in her.
A few weeks later, while I was at work, she stops in to get a salad. She walked by me, smiled, and, at that moment, I knew I had to stop her and have a conversation with her. The conversation went well. We had a small chat that ended with me giving her my number. I honestly didn’t expect her to call… I have always been good with talking to ladies, but getting calls from them was rare. I got off of work that day around three or four pm, and within a few hours, my phone rang. At that moment… I knew I found someone special.
Like every relationship… you have your ups and downs. Mostly all the downs were because of my stupidity and selfishness, but somehow, she was still there by my side. We went to college together, then moved in together, then I proposed to her one late evening in December of 2006. We even set a date that same night on when we would wed. We both wanted a Winter wedding day. After some thinking late into this night, we decided on a December 27th, 2008 wedding date. Everything was set. The future looked promising. I was in love with her and loved her. She was, and still is the best thing that has ever happened to me.
No… this story doesn’t have a happy ending. Not even three years later… we ended up giving up. Less than a year after that, we ended up getting a divorce. The reasons for us getting a divorce? Well… I would say it was 50/50; however, I would have to say I was more at blame, so it was probably closer to 80/20. We had issues. We had some problems that we could not seem to get past. I became a weak man, a weak husband, and even though I tried to stand tall… I crumbled.
Divorce has been very hard on me… I have tried to suck it up, go out with friends and family, and try to hide the truth of how much pain I was in. I missed her, and I still do miss her. Thoughts of other men dated her angered me. Even though I’m the one that asked for the divorce, I felt she was still, very much, apart of me. But she wasn’t… There was nothing I could do to win her heart back. Our relationship was ruined because of actions that I took. If only I was a stronger man… if only I had just listened to her problems/concerns… then maybe, maybe, we would still be together today.
To Be Continued…
-robert1ee
