A Glimpse Into My Life… Pt. XVII

Closing a chapter in your life is one of the hardest things to do…

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I have walked many paths in my life.  I have seen more than I feel I should have.  I still dream of a “perfect life”, but I will settle for a life I see perfect.  There are many things in my life I am not proud of doing, however, even though I am not proud with some of my past, I still have to thank my past for the adventures I took.  If it wasn’t for my past, I wouldn’t be the man I am today.  Being able to take a step in the right direction, and to continue that step in the right directions, takes courage and strength.

Let It Go…

There is nothing more bothersome than thinking that you can save something, but to find out it’s way past dinner time.  Once you start this path, there is no going back.  You are closing this chapter.  You are never again going to focus on the subject, and if you do do-so, you will put yourself into a mental state of mind that is not healthy.

There is nothing that can prepare you for finally making that first step.  It’s like having a child… you can read all the books you’d like to; but until you have that experience, you won’t really understand how to handle it.  But handling it, you will.

Soul Searching…

Love thyself. Accept thyself. Forgive thyself. And be good to thyself.

Very important lesson I had to learn.  You can not accept a new beginning if you don’t first accept you in a new beginning.  I had to learn to accept my past, accept my failures, and forgive myself for the past that I had.  I had to learn to love myself and be true to myself. Only then… can you be ready for your new journey.

Let Happiness Find You…

The last thing I had to learn was harder for me than the rest… I needed to stop pushing for love.  I need to stop looking for that special someone.  I had to learn how to accept that fact that my love to myself was good enough until someone walked into my life that I could share that love with.  Searching only hurts the heart.  Only scars the soul.  Once I stopped searching for this… someone walked into my life that changed me forever.

Take Your Breath Away

 

To Be Continued…

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More Lonely Than Before…

Know Your Worth

Does waking up to someone in bed every morning make you happy? What if it is someone different every time… Or rather… does having meaningless relationships make you happy? Or would you rather just have someone to call upon when you are lonely…

It’s sad… but when one truly looks at the situation… you can see both parties are just being used. But why? Why? How does this work? How, possibly, in the back of your mind, can you believe that you are doing something good for your feelings/heart when you don’t even love what you are doing?

It makes me wonder… Why do it in the first place then? What is the point in these meaningless relationships… Is it to just make you happy? Is it to satisfy your sexual cravings? Is it to making you feel less lonely… when in actuality, it makes you feel even more so???

Maybe I’m approaching this to sensitive… I mean… it’s just fucking right? Right? What is wrong with sex being just sex? Why does there always have to be feelings involved? Emotions involved? Why can’t just two people get together and just enjoy something wonderful…

That last paragraph is something I’ll never know the answer to.  I’ll never understand how one could eventually allow themselves to have sex ONLY because they feel lonely or needed.  And to do it with someone that doesn’t care about you or your feelings, but to only satisfy their own loneliness or neediness.

I am a man.  I am sensitive.  I do care about who I have sex with.  I don’t want meaningless relationships.  I do love.  I do fall in love.  I do care about other’s emotions.  Call me what you want… but this, my dear friends, is what is missing.  This, my dear friends, is why relationships of this sort I have talked about above… will never work.  Cause without emotions, without caring, WITHOUT… love… this is just lust.

And lust, to me, is a desease that the mind makes up just to make you feel less lonely.  Lust… hurts the soul and cripples the body… and will never… truly… make one happy.

-The Other Point Of View

Right Back At Ya!

Sometimes life… gives you lemons.  Sometimes life… gives you roses.  Well… I know I’m not perfect… but anyone that wants to judge me before judging themselves… this picture below illustrates my thoughts exactly…

-The Other Point of View