Be In My Heart…

As I sit here,
Mind twisted
Visions of us appear,
These memories consisted…

of the theme park,
I remember the rides,
of telling our stories,
I remember the confides

One by One,
The images come and go,
A beautiful album,
That we can flip through when we’re old

But as I sit here,
I am trying to see,
A world without,
A You and of a Me

I understand that,
Life can be tough,
I understand that,
Being alone is easy

I understand that,
Each past can be rough,
I understand that,
Marriage isnt breezy.

I’m a loving man,
I put my heart on my sleeve,
When I first met you,
I just couldnt believe,

That you gave me a chance,
Scotty’s the first date
Many memories after,
That got us to fate

A beautiful marriage,
On a hot day,
With our loving family,
Observing us say…

“For Better Or Worse…”

You are my soulmate,
But somehow we got lost,
Something, Somehow went wrong,
And here comes the cost

I’m lossing my bestfriend,
The only person I could trust,
Now I’m sitting here writting this,
Because I don’t know how to adjust

I gave you my all,
I truely want you to know,
I wanted to be by your side,
Through the thick or thin snow

I’m not giving up,
But at the same,
Because I’m a good man,
I’m respecting your wishes.

I’m not ready to leave,
But at the same,
Because I’m still in love,
I’m respecting your wishes.

I love you,
Til Death Do Us Part,
For the rest of my days,
You will always be in my Heart.

New Beginning…

Sunlight is bright…
As it sits high in the skies,
Not a cloud in sight…
Starts to blur my eyes.

Powdered sand…
Pressured by our feet,
Wiping sweat with my hand…
Trying to stay cool in the heat.

Collecting seashells…
Started to become our morning walk tradition,
Setting up something you couldn’t tell…
Which’ll bring back a fond recollection.

On one knee, I took on that beach…
Asked you a question that means a lot to me,
“Will you spend the rest of your life with me?”
“Will you… Marry me?”

I DO…

Live… Life… Love… Life…

Blood is hot,
Heart beats rapidly,
I am out of breath,
However, its worthy…

To seeing your eyes,
To catching a smile,
I’ll always come to you,
Even if I have to travel for miles…

Just to hold your hand,
Just to hear your voice,
Just to steal a kiss,
Just so my soul can rejoice…

Being with you…
Seems to take away any doubt,
The love that you put in life,
Is the best I’ve seen about…

Living this life,
Loving this life,
One day soon, my love,
I will make you my wife…

No Longer Exist…

Time goes by…/Painful… the tears fall quickly/What am I doing here?/I need to make adjustments quickly…

I’m stuck in this train of thought/Forever, you and I?/My heart felt it good/My mind had these thoughts…

Chapter doesn’t get finished/Writers block/But not the type that makes you forget/Just the type that makes you feel locked…

From the world, I struggle to breath fresh air/My lungs are yearning for your presence near/Intoxication/Knocks me off my feet/But whats it worth when I can’t keep you near.

My eyes try to look past the truth/Like I’m looking for some reason or excuse//But reality settles in/And once again, I start to realize that I’m all alone under this roof.

Lonely planet… I must be on Mars/I feel no one is near me/Lost… hopeless… need to make adjustments quickly…

Your presence makes me happy/Without it…it feels missed/Lets now see what happens… When I no longer exist…

What’s The Reason…

Whats to remember when I didnt even exist?
The thoughts of starting somethin,
Didn’t mean shit…
The truth?
You never wanted any part of it.

Should of listened from the get go
My heart was starving
You feed me till I was full
Heart pounding, carving…

I really don’t know much,
But I know what to feel…
And as much as I hate needles at the doctors,
I can tell you that this shit was more real.

Pain is all around the world,
Love has fallen apart,
And this is the last time in my life,
I will give away my heart.

Wear it on my sleeve,
I should consider that,
Because as easy as it was for me to give it away,
I could of been letting someone borrow my hat.

And to get it back…
Is as easier than to give???
Let me ask you a question…
Is it easier to steal or to borrow?
Is it easier to suffer or to live?

That’s right… life is crazy,
We suffer daily,
We all wake up to accomplish one thing,
Get through another one… maybe.

So what should I do…
Jump off a bridge?
Just “kick it” and “hang”?
Should I ride til I die?
Rockin guns never get the same pain?

Its all bullshit…
I’m over it…
I will just drink…
Til my body can no longer function…
That, will be, accomplished in one way…
When my life no longer functions…

Understanding…

Love is endless…
But blinded by the truth,
If the truth was heard,
Would you understand it?
Would you actually hear it?

Love is like an echo…
Gets weaker with each bounce,
Gets harder to listen,
Would you understand it?
Would you actually hear it?

Love and Pain…
Share the same soul,
You need one to experience one,
Would you understand it?
Would you actually hear it?

Pain is lightless…
Each one hits harder,
Each one makes the world darker,
Would you understand it?
Would you actually hear it?

Pain is death…
Thoughts stay in the mind,
The body starts to over-analyze,
Would you understand it?
Would you actually hear it?

Love me tonight,
Love me always,
Hold me through the night,
Comfort me on all days,
Live with me forever,
Pain will be never,
Let me hold your hand,
Say this softly in your ear…

But…
Would you understand it?
Would you actually hear it?

Keep Trying…

As time passes…
The heart grows stronger,
Love fills within,
You know longer wonder,
What life was before then.

The light replaces the dark…
You see what you’re looking at,
No longer taking a guess,
You now understand that,
Garbage day is good to clean up a mess.

You approach life positive…
You smile when you’re sad,
You laugh when you should cry,
You try your best to not get mad,
But at your best, the harder they’ll try.

Cause if you give up…
Then what was the point in trying,
If you think you have a chance to make it,
Then move forward, head high, face the music…

Take the step forward that will start forever…