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Does waking up to someone in bed every morning make you happy? What if it is someone different every time… Or rather… does having meaningless relationships make you happy? Or would you rather just have someone to call upon when you are lonely…

It’s sad… but when one truly looks at the situation… you can see both parties are just being used. But why? Why? How does this work? How, possibly, in the back of your mind, can you believe that you are doing something good for your feelings/heart when you don’t even love what you are doing?

It makes me wonder… Why do it in the first place then? What is the point in these meaningless relationships… Is it to just make you happy? Is it to satisfy your sexual cravings? Is it to making you feel less lonely… when in actuality, it makes you feel even more so???

Maybe I’m approaching this to sensitive… I mean… it’s just fucking right? Right? What is wrong with sex being just sex? Why does there always have to be feelings involved? Emotions involved? Why can’t just two people get together and just enjoy something wonderful…

That last paragraph is something I’ll never know the answer to.  I’ll never understand how one could eventually allow themselves to have sex ONLY because they feel lonely or needed.  And to do it with someone that doesn’t care about you or your feelings, but to only satisfy their own loneliness or neediness.

I am a man.  I am sensitive.  I do care about who I have sex with.  I don’t want meaningless relationships.  I do love.  I do fall in love.  I do care about other’s emotions.  Call me what you want… but this, my dear friends, is what is missing.  This, my dear friends, is why relationships of this sort I have talked about above… will never work.  Cause without emotions, without caring, WITHOUT… love… this is just lust.

And lust, to me, is a desease that the mind makes up just to make you feel less lonely.  Lust… hurts the soul and cripples the body… and will never… truly… make one happy.

-The Other Point Of View

Seduction…

Desperate Situations,
Sexual Temptation,
My minds focused…
One way track to hopeless…

Starving…
My visual is what my minds carving,
Only one thing I see,
Tunnel vision has consumed me.

So seductive…
I love the way she moves,
From the bathroom to the bed,
Damn… she all up in my head,
Vision no longer clear,
Once she starts kissing on my ear.

My mind goes blank,
As she climbs on top,
Head sinks deeper,
As I tell her “dont stop”.

She must be a dream,
Because this couldn’t exist,
A body so fine as hers…
I thought I could never get with.

As we reach the climax,
She starts to bend back,
She grabs my feet,
As she continues to fight back.

I feel her quiver,
She feels me shake,
She doesn’t stop,
Tell she gets all the bait.

Its amazing…
Breathtaking…
The way she is with me,
I don’t want anything else…

Its amazing…
Breathtaking…
When I’m with her…
She doesn’t want anything else…

Love making at its finest…

Bullying…

A good friend just made this post and thought I’d share it to all my followers: Bullying of an elder.

And here is a bit more to add to her blog:

What is even more sad… is that parents have no clue because they are not being parents.  And I agree… I knew what would happen to me if I talked like that.  I keep saying that they need to bring punishments back to schools.  I remember my teachers in first grade smacking knuckles of kids hands when they would talk back.  Our principle was allowed to spank children with bad behavior.  Another issue is… child protection advocates.  I’m not saying it’s right to beat a child… but damn… there is nothing wrong with a good spanking to teach them a lesson.  Children are not “scared” of their parents anymore for their bad behavior, because they know their parents can’t touch them.  And once the parent does… the child will make a big deal out of it and then you have the school board and police doing investigations.

Another issue is the school itself.  Schools are being told left and right about bullying that is going on, and the schools just ignore it.  They say they’ll look into it just to put peace in your mind, but they aren’t doing anything about it.  Schools and Parents are the worse corporates of these events.  Lack of good parenting (teaching of right and wrong and actually going through with bad behavior punishments) and the schools lack of following through with bullying complaints. It is sickening that schools just seem to not care.

Bullying has been going on for decades… but it seems like in this last decade… they have gone from light hazing events to all out jumping and killing someone.  And the kid being picked on are afraid to stand up and fight… because bullies do not fight far anymore either.  It’s not one and one anymore… you fight once with your bully… they come back with all their friends.  Now its one on six+.  OR the bully comes to school the next day with a gun or knife.  So what do you do… one kid brought a taser gun to school in Indianapolis, Indiana to protect himself against bullies.  Probably not the right answer, but it sure as hell got the school board in the spotlight to do something about it.  The press has been all over that event.

Something does need to change… and quickly… because right now, the kids getting picked on aren’t all resorting to weapons yet… but I have a feeling that will change if they feel that is the only way to protect them… which is sad.  Remember Columbine? That was a result of a kid being picked on wasn’t it??? And that was his retaliation???  That was over a decade ago… and nothing has changed.  If anything… it has become worse.

I just hope we find a solution before more schools have died students and everyone wondering what happened…

-The Other Point of View

Reason…

Everything Happens for A Reason…

We all just hope that we find out what that reason is sooner than later…

-The Other Point of View

Right Back At Ya!

Sometimes life… gives you lemons.  Sometimes life… gives you roses.  Well… I know I’m not perfect… but anyone that wants to judge me before judging themselves… this picture below illustrates my thoughts exactly…

-The Other Point of View

No Longer Exist…

Time goes by…/Painful… the tears fall quickly/What am I doing here?/I need to make adjustments quickly…

I’m stuck in this train of thought/Forever, you and I?/My heart felt it good/My mind had these thoughts…

Chapter doesn’t get finished/Writers block/But not the type that makes you forget/Just the type that makes you feel locked…

From the world, I struggle to breath fresh air/My lungs are yearning for your presence near/Intoxication/Knocks me off my feet/But whats it worth when I can’t keep you near.

My eyes try to look past the truth/Like I’m looking for some reason or excuse//But reality settles in/And once again, I start to realize that I’m all alone under this roof.

Lonely planet… I must be on Mars/I feel no one is near me/Lost… hopeless… need to make adjustments quickly…

Your presence makes me happy/Without it…it feels missed/Lets now see what happens… When I no longer exist…

What’s The Reason…

Whats to remember when I didnt even exist?
The thoughts of starting somethin,
Didn’t mean shit…
The truth?
You never wanted any part of it.

Should of listened from the get go
My heart was starving
You feed me till I was full
Heart pounding, carving…

I really don’t know much,
But I know what to feel…
And as much as I hate needles at the doctors,
I can tell you that this shit was more real.

Pain is all around the world,
Love has fallen apart,
And this is the last time in my life,
I will give away my heart.

Wear it on my sleeve,
I should consider that,
Because as easy as it was for me to give it away,
I could of been letting someone borrow my hat.

And to get it back…
Is as easier than to give???
Let me ask you a question…
Is it easier to steal or to borrow?
Is it easier to suffer or to live?

That’s right… life is crazy,
We suffer daily,
We all wake up to accomplish one thing,
Get through another one… maybe.

So what should I do…
Jump off a bridge?
Just “kick it” and “hang”?
Should I ride til I die?
Rockin guns never get the same pain?

Its all bullshit…
I’m over it…
I will just drink…
Til my body can no longer function…
That, will be, accomplished in one way…
When my life no longer functions…