Be In My Heart…

As I sit here,
Mind twisted
Visions of us appear,
These memories consisted…

of the theme park,
I remember the rides,
of telling our stories,
I remember the confides

One by One,
The images come and go,
A beautiful album,
That we can flip through when we’re old

But as I sit here,
I am trying to see,
A world without,
A You and of a Me

I understand that,
Life can be tough,
I understand that,
Being alone is easy

I understand that,
Each past can be rough,
I understand that,
Marriage isnt breezy.

I’m a loving man,
I put my heart on my sleeve,
When I first met you,
I just couldnt believe,

That you gave me a chance,
Scotty’s the first date
Many memories after,
That got us to fate

A beautiful marriage,
On a hot day,
With our loving family,
Observing us say…

“For Better Or Worse…”

You are my soulmate,
But somehow we got lost,
Something, Somehow went wrong,
And here comes the cost

I’m lossing my bestfriend,
The only person I could trust,
Now I’m sitting here writting this,
Because I don’t know how to adjust

I gave you my all,
I truely want you to know,
I wanted to be by your side,
Through the thick or thin snow

I’m not giving up,
But at the same,
Because I’m a good man,
I’m respecting your wishes.

I’m not ready to leave,
But at the same,
Because I’m still in love,
I’m respecting your wishes.

I love you,
Til Death Do Us Part,
For the rest of my days,
You will always be in my Heart.

Lonely Paths

I walk tall
Eyes to the ground
Simple things in this life
Seem hard to be found

Hidden in the dark
My vision tries to see
Pupils enlarged
But nothing I see

I’m told I can find it
But it’s not meant to be found
Wait for it to find you
And spin your around

Life isn’t difficult
Only you make it so
So life is difficult
Because you made it so

Maybe it’s time you realized the truth
Maybe, just maybe…
It’s time to stand up to you…

A Glimpse Into My Lifeā€¦ Pt. X

“They say… we learn from mistakes,
That’s why they mistake me.”

I am a true example of a book,
that cannot be read by the cover.
First impressions mean more than you know,
but my first impressions are not what win me over.

It takes time,
Read the pages, the chapters, the lines,
Inhale them like the air you breath,
That is when I win over the minds.

My life consist of many hills,
I’ve climbed so much you’d think,
I would be in the best shape of my life.
But because of my journey,
I’ve been through situations,
That have scared me for life.

I become lonely and bored,
That, at times, I’m not sure why I’m alive,
Never had a suicide thought come to mind,
But my mind has had thoughts of suicide.

Stuck in this World…
No one can hear my screaming and shouting,
I have my fist banging on the wall,
But the noise doesn’t amount to nothing
To get the attention I’m trying to seek
The warnings I’m giving must be weak.

I need to become tough,
How’d I even become this way?
Mind is being challenged,
Can I get out of this place?

At times, I feel my BS is catching up to me,
Maybe I should just tell the truth,
Tell the people how I really am,
Tell the people how I really feel,

Make a blog that spills my guts.
In a World full of fear…,
Truth is what I’d rather live,
Than run from the fear.

Life IS as cracked up as it is to be,
Life full of smiles,
Is a life that will last for miles,
I don’t need to worry about filling up,
Cause when “life” runs out,
That’ll be my time to be called back “up”.

So while I’m still on this planet,
My goal is to not take it for granted…
I’m going to make each step amount,
Make each moment count…

Or what is the point in the first place…

 

To Be Continued…

robert1ee

Leap of Faith

The darkness…
The path…
The one way…
No turning back.

Vision…
Unclear…
So far…
Yet, so near…

Time,
Standstill,
Seconds like hours,
Hours unreal…

Patient,
Calmness,
Deep breath,
Afraid of what is next.

Step forward,
Brave,
Hoping,
Eyes wide open,

Bad dreams,
Unseen,
Ungrateful,
Praying, thankful…

Eyes closed,
Trust,
Move forward blind,
But forward, go, I must.

Next step,
Will be a leap of faith…

Being With You…

Warm days… Cool evenings…
Nothing makes it more Spring,
Being with you… Drinking some wine…
Our favorite band playing as we sing.

Holding hands… in the moon light…
Makes shadows behind our faces,
One look at you… Into those eyes…
And I know that I’ll never trade places.

One day… summer at the beach…
Where we can go and take long walks,
Still holding hands… still looking into those eyes…
I must be in love cause, damn, I can barely talk.

Kissing you… listening to the waves…
It is amazing how we ended up here,
Cause finding you… In this maze…
Filled me with joy, replaced the fear.