A Glimpse Into My Life… Pt. X

“They say… we learn from mistakes,
That’s why they mistake me.”

I am a true example of a book,
that cannot be read by the cover.
First impressions mean more than you know,
but my first impressions are not what win me over.

It takes time,
Read the pages, the chapters, the lines,
Inhale them like the air you breath,
That is when I win over the minds.

My life consist of many hills,
I’ve climbed so much you’d think,
I would be in the best shape of my life.
But because of my journey,
I’ve been through situations,
That have scared me for life.

I become lonely and bored,
That, at times, I’m not sure why I’m alive,
Never had a suicide thought come to mind,
But my mind has had thoughts of suicide.

Stuck in this World…
No one can hear my screaming and shouting,
I have my fist banging on the wall,
But the noise doesn’t amount to nothing
To get the attention I’m trying to seek
The warnings I’m giving must be weak.

I need to become tough,
How’d I even become this way?
Mind is being challenged,
Can I get out of this place?

At times, I feel my BS is catching up to me,
Maybe I should just tell the truth,
Tell the people how I really am,
Tell the people how I really feel,

Make a blog that spills my guts.
In a World full of fear…,
Truth is what I’d rather live,
Than run from the fear.

Life IS as cracked up as it is to be,
Life full of smiles,
Is a life that will last for miles,
I don’t need to worry about filling up,
Cause when “life” runs out,
That’ll be my time to be called back “up”.

So while I’m still on this planet,
My goal is to not take it for granted…
I’m going to make each step amount,
Make each moment count…

Or what is the point in the first place…

 

To Be Continued…

robert1ee

A Glimpse Into My Life… Pt. IX

“An optimist says the glass is half full, a pessimist says the glass is half empty, an opportunist picks up the glass and drinks the contents while the other two argue over it.”

I have always felt I was the opportunist.  Every situation that I have ran into, I have always found the best route/advantage to try to handle the problem.  For starters… I’m a great bullshiter.  I have been able to talk myself out of many situations.  Being a great BS’er has its own problems, but we’ll get to that a different time.

When I asked for my divorce… I already had a plan set that would put me in the best possible position to be able to ask for it.  When I quit my job at Marsh Supermarkets, I already had a plan unfolding for income that would help me til I found another job.

Now… I’m not saying this doesn’t always come back and bite me in the ass.  Life is full of failures… but those failures have made my life.  Failures shouldn’t be looked at as a negative event in your life… but rather as a positive look.  Because of those failures in life, you are where you are at today… and that, alone, is a blessing.

To Be Continued…

robert1ee