Author: robert1ee

No Longer Exist…

Time goes by…/Painful… the tears fall quickly/What am I doing here?/I need to make adjustments quickly…

I’m stuck in this train of thought/Forever, you and I?/My heart felt it good/My mind had these thoughts…

Chapter doesn’t get finished/Writers block/But not the type that makes you forget/Just the type that makes you feel locked…

From the world, I struggle to breath fresh air/My lungs are yearning for your presence near/Intoxication/Knocks me off my feet/But whats it worth when I can’t keep you near.

My eyes try to look past the truth/Like I’m looking for some reason or excuse//But reality settles in/And once again, I start to realize that I’m all alone under this roof.

Lonely planet… I must be on Mars/I feel no one is near me/Lost… hopeless… need to make adjustments quickly…

Your presence makes me happy/Without it…it feels missed/Lets now see what happens… When I no longer exist…

What’s The Reason…

Whats to remember when I didnt even exist?
The thoughts of starting somethin,
Didn’t mean shit…
The truth?
You never wanted any part of it.

Should of listened from the get go
My heart was starving
You feed me till I was full
Heart pounding, carving…

I really don’t know much,
But I know what to feel…
And as much as I hate needles at the doctors,
I can tell you that this shit was more real.

Pain is all around the world,
Love has fallen apart,
And this is the last time in my life,
I will give away my heart.

Wear it on my sleeve,
I should consider that,
Because as easy as it was for me to give it away,
I could of been letting someone borrow my hat.

And to get it back…
Is as easier than to give???
Let me ask you a question…
Is it easier to steal or to borrow?
Is it easier to suffer or to live?

That’s right… life is crazy,
We suffer daily,
We all wake up to accomplish one thing,
Get through another one… maybe.

So what should I do…
Jump off a bridge?
Just “kick it” and “hang”?
Should I ride til I die?
Rockin guns never get the same pain?

Its all bullshit…
I’m over it…
I will just drink…
Til my body can no longer function…
That, will be, accomplished in one way…
When my life no longer functions…

Understanding…

Love is endless…
But blinded by the truth,
If the truth was heard,
Would you understand it?
Would you actually hear it?

Love is like an echo…
Gets weaker with each bounce,
Gets harder to listen,
Would you understand it?
Would you actually hear it?

Love and Pain…
Share the same soul,
You need one to experience one,
Would you understand it?
Would you actually hear it?

Pain is lightless…
Each one hits harder,
Each one makes the world darker,
Would you understand it?
Would you actually hear it?

Pain is death…
Thoughts stay in the mind,
The body starts to over-analyze,
Would you understand it?
Would you actually hear it?

Love me tonight,
Love me always,
Hold me through the night,
Comfort me on all days,
Live with me forever,
Pain will be never,
Let me hold your hand,
Say this softly in your ear…

But…
Would you understand it?
Would you actually hear it?

A Time To…

They say there’s:
A time to cry
A time to be sad
A time to say goodbye
A time to be mad

At this bar, drinking,
Trying to get past this sorrow,
Like a wise man, thinking,
Just get me to tomorrow.

I ask too many questions,
Answers of some, I shouldn’t know,
But I stay in the kitchen, when it gets hot…
Cause that’s when true feelings show

I’m burning memories…
Like rubber on NASCAR,
Please leave my memory,
Go somewhere afar…

If struggling is for the weak,
Then I’m at my weakest point,
Been fighting this for to long,
That I forgot to stop and inhale the joint (life)

What’s after this?
A new beginning or a new sinning,
I needed to keep tough,
Because with every beginning starts a new winning.

Keep Trying…

As time passes…
The heart grows stronger,
Love fills within,
You know longer wonder,
What life was before then.

The light replaces the dark…
You see what you’re looking at,
No longer taking a guess,
You now understand that,
Garbage day is good to clean up a mess.

You approach life positive…
You smile when you’re sad,
You laugh when you should cry,
You try your best to not get mad,
But at your best, the harder they’ll try.

Cause if you give up…
Then what was the point in trying,
If you think you have a chance to make it,
Then move forward, head high, face the music…

Take the step forward that will start forever…

Being With You…

Warm days… Cool evenings…
Nothing makes it more Spring,
Being with you… Drinking some wine…
Our favorite band playing as we sing.

Holding hands… in the moon light…
Makes shadows behind our faces,
One look at you… Into those eyes…
And I know that I’ll never trade places.

One day… summer at the beach…
Where we can go and take long walks,
Still holding hands… still looking into those eyes…
I must be in love cause, damn, I can barely talk.

Kissing you… listening to the waves…
It is amazing how we ended up here,
Cause finding you… In this maze…
Filled me with joy, replaced the fear.

Motivation

Awake on this morning…,
The start, the begin,
Let the sun hit my face,
The Warmness fills me within.

Understand the goals,
To tackle for the day,
Make each minute count,
And don’t let one slip away.

Stand tall to the World,
Cause it’s a beast,
The followers in this life,
Are its greatest feast.

Take each step forward,
Let the moment live,
Don’t regret your past steps,
Forgive which needs forgived.

If you can remember one thing,
To be your foundation,
I love you,
And will help keep your motivation…

Every Step Forward Is Like A Mile

Every morning I wake up with a smile on my face,
Every night I go to sleep with a frown on my face,
The events that happen between these two moments,
Seem to go from great to bad between these moments,
I need to change my ways, cause every day it gets more rough,
Cause what I thought was good, obviously isn’t good enough,
Keeping my head high, continue to smile,
This one step forward, seems like its really a mile…

Life Likes A New Penny

Life is like a new penny,
Starts off all shinny and pretty,
Then it falls, hits the dirt,
And over time, it starts to look shitty.

You start to feel convinced,
That yours is the only one this way,
You start to stay home,
And never go out to play.

Until one day, you open your eyes,
And see something shinny in disguise,
Is your true love, could it really be?
Or just the sunshine, shinning upon me?

You look closer, and find the truth,
It’s another penny looking at you,
It’s looking beautiful, and you’re in love,
But not quit sure what to do with this love…

You step closer, and realize the truth,
Break away from the shell of nervous,
You see it for what its made of,
And not what’s on the surface.

Beauty isn’t skin deep,
True beauty lys within…

I Keep Drinking

These seconds seem to slowly pass…
As the bartender fills another glass…
But my minds still thinking…
So I keep drinking…

What can I do…
What should I do…
I feel every breath I take…
Just isn’t enough to break…

These crazy memories…
These crazy dreams…
I try to close my eyes…
But you is all I see it seems…

I know life isn’t easy…
But didn’t expect it this rough…
The smile I’ve had on as of late…
Has just been a front…

If only I could tell you my real feelings…
Maybe then we can have an understanding…
But not sure right now is good timing…
Cause my emotions will sound like whining…

So… yes bartender fill this glass…
Hope this Goose will make it last…
Clear my mind from these thoughts…
Hoping the time will slowly pass…