I usually don’t share this side of me…
By Definition… Loneliness is the state of being alone in solitary isolation.
Eight months ago I asked for a divorce from a marriage that lost its focus on what the two of us were in it for… So for the past eight months I have been in and out of this state of being multiple times. I have good friendships that have helped me along the way. I have met amazing new people that has helped me keep my head high… Yet, at times, I still feel like I’m climbing this very steep hill all by myself without a rope.
Living alone, at the time, seemed like an awesome idea. However, as the days turned night and nights turned day… this is just adding to my loneliness. I try new activities… like this blog for example, to allow me to connect, and at the same time, share my sense of humor. But one can only hide this feeling for so long…
Its amazing what a companion can bring… But yet, finding her has been the hardest task out of all of this… mainly for the main reason, the divorce is not finalized yet. For the other reasons… they remain to be unknown. I know time will heal everything and everything happens for a reason, but this is a hard pill to swallow.
Each and every morning I awake with a smile on my face ready to tackle a new day… and each and every night I go to sleep ready to get to the next morning… Hoping, one day, I’ll open my eyes, and not need to dream any more… cause you will be my dream.
“I’m going to smile like nothings wrong. Talk like everyrthings perfect and act like it’s all a dream and pretend its not hurting me.” -Unknown
This quote has summed me up perfectly for just about my entire life. Everyone that knows me, knows the happy me. The one that is alway smiling. The one that everyone gets along with and is very entertaining. Very rarely does anyone get to see this deeper side of me.
As I continue to climb this hill… I will not look back and say “What if?”… but continue looking forward and say… Why Not? (with a smile)
-The Other Point of View
